The Soul's Stagnant Sins
Our sin . . . for us religious people . . . is what separates us from knowing, loving, and embracing the divine. It’s what keeps us from validating the humanity of the other. It’s what keeps us completely and utterly lost. It’s a spiritual disconnect. And I think it begins with a lack of trust and a lack of gratitude. We don’t trust our place as God’s child so we “hypocritically tolerate sin while verbally espousing spirituality.” [1] And I see this in myself too – it’s my own “lostness.” I don’t want to live this way. I want to confess the sin that looms over my life like a black veil. I hate it. I’m ready to name it and take it down. But what I fear more than admitting it is imagining what you may think of me when you find out I have it. So I bury it and try to be the only one that truly knows about it. I live hypocritically. This “lostness” is hard to admit because it’s tied so closely to my desire to be good and virtuous. I diligently try to be acceptable, li